MY LAST POST…GOODBYE SULEKHA

   ...August, 2007…I joined this world of the virtual space…searching for a new dimension where my thoughts would be free.  Where I could express my heart’s core to its deepest depth.  The blogging world of SULEKHA… gave me a new horizon to be free… to interact with minds all around the globe… some with the like mindz… some with different…

I got new friends… met some very wonderful people… admired and got blessed to read some very intellectual minds.  Very soon this world was such a beautiful place for me.

The lone heart suddenly wasn’t lonely anymore. 

I was not alone anymore…

I felt there exists purity somewhere still… joining back my profligate thoughts… making the sun shine for me… I started peeping out into the light from the black dark smoke in my life.

But… there was something more waiting ahead around the corner for me.

Jus like Cobain said…I guess ‘Jesus don’ just wants me for a Sunbeam’…

The same was happening with me again.

I wasn’t spared by the devil here also.  He followed me in… infiltrated my self owned angelic space.  The space where I could fly like a bird… evolution happening to me everyday… Maybe ‘He’ was just waiting for me outside the door…

As when I was getting loved… the catastrophe happened.  The mask started to unveil… the air filled with smoke and dust of burnt desires… bloodstained abuses… I ate dirt…

and now am lying here succumbed with blood of my infant soul on my shirt sleeve…

Shades of red and white on my chest… grey and black in my eyes…

I have lost vision now… this place that I loved the most as if like in horizon started turning into a Hell… Maybe Hell broke loose somewhere… The savage garden wasn’t spared from the sons of satan too… Dirty minds kept stealing innocence from everywhere… I revolted… fought back… till my armor broke… and I lost my limbs… my unseen limbs of feelings and thoughts…

Friends… I stand here today…naked and raped… abused and slaughtered… I asked myself what was my fault…?? Some voice said… nothing… just that you were honest…

I am done now… I am loosing my senses… and before this dream that still exists in the sweet memories of my tenure in SULEKHA turns into a real nightmare… I am leaving…

No!! I ain’ no coward…and not escaping… just am too tired of being sick anymore… cant take the ordeal of loosing anymore… So be it… I have stopped dreaming…

All you friends and wonderful people…Team SUL have been a very wonderful experience for me… that thou shall neva forget…

Its just my life’s raw reality… the truth that I am reminded by the god’s everytime I try to smile a bit…

I AM THE UNFORGIVEN…!!

Well friends…its time for me to go…

This is my last blog post here… bidding goodbye to all of you… Thanx for all the love and respect you gave me… maybe much more than I deserved…

Will Miss You… SUL and SULEKHAITES…

Time to go… with skin on my teeth and blood on my face…

Am leaving on a Jet Plane… playing my old six string…

don’ know if I will be back again…

Maybe Not…

All my bags r packed Ready to go

Am standing here outside the door

I hate to wake you up

to say goodbye…

But the dawn is fading

and Black clouds are falling cold and strong

The taxis waiting its blowing its horn

Again I am so lone

That I could die

So kiss me and smile for me

Tell me that you will not wait for me

Hold me like u never let me go

I am leaving on a jet plane

Don’ know if I will be back again

Oh! babe I got to go…

There’s so many time

When I was down

So many times

I played around

I tell u now

They mean so much to me

Everyplace I go

I will think of you

Every song I sing

I will sing for you

When I go back

You will still be in my heartstrings

So kiss me and smile for me

Tell me that you will not wait for me

Hold me like u never let me go

I am leaving on a jet plane

Don’ know if I will be back again

Oh! babe I hate to go…

Now the time has come to leave you

One more time let me kiss you

Close your eyes

I will be on my way

I think about the days to come

When I will have to live alone

About the times when I have to say

So kiss me and smile for me

Tell me that you will not wait for me

Hold me like u will never let me go

I am leaving on a jet plane

Don’ know if I will be back again

Oh! babe I hate to go…

So kiss me and smile for me

Tell me that you will not wait for me

Hold me like u never let me go

I am leaving on a jet plane

Don’ know if I will be back again

Oh! babe I got to go…

I got to go…

My last wish before i go...Please don't waste this beautiful place... share nice thoughts and keep the dirt aside please... Be clean...
Don' make SULEKHA into another Orkut...
 

Cheers n love to you all…always

GoodBYE…